Procedural
Jan. 19th, 2006 05:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shermaramaComing up for three years ago, I started this journal with the intent of it being exclusively about music. I keep a online diary elsewhere, and I wanted somewhere discrete to decant the music waffling into. It was partly to do with the feeling of separation I still felt; as if this person doing the music was someone slightly separate, someone I wasn't sure I could safely call myself yet. I'd just joined a new band doing somethin far closer to what I wanted than I'd ever done before, I'd been taking drumming lessons for a short while but wasn't in any way ready to declare myself a drummer yet. I didn't play a gig as a drummer for most of another year, indeed, though I did a lot of bass playing. In the time since then, music has become such a big part of what I do that I don't think there's any point keeping it separate any more. Or perhaps this reflects the general spirit of the moment; I'm so used to having to compartmentalise, move from one group, mindset, position, to another, to having a long distance relationship and having to deal with the sometimes sharp contrast between the times in my partner's company and the times without - but now I think I can see ahead to a time when some of these boundaries are going to dissolve.
Accordingly, from now on I'm going to consider this a general purpose blog. It's still going to feature a lot of music stuff, because I still do a lot of this.
But now I can post this wibble here. I'm doing a part-time degree, only I'm getting very fed up of my job and am doing it as fast as possible to get out of here. Because I'm part time, my fees are waived by the university. As long as I have the full-time job, I cannot be registered on the full-time degree, even if I pay the fees myself. I've managed to get through the first two years of it as part-time, ostensibly, because part-time includes anything up to one module short of the full complement and I've had free passes on one or two modules in each of the previous years because of my former experience. This year, however, I have to do everything. Only I can't because that means I'm full-time. So I'd have to leave one, just one, module, til next year, and maybe graduate in February. That means I either leave the job this summer, and try and get a new one without the actual degree yet - possible, I've been getting jobs without a degree all my life, after all - or wait til February and steal a march on next year's graduates. But I don't want to be here til February. It's at least partly irrational but I want to do what I didn't the first time, I want to graduate with everyone else, in summer, move on, get on with it, do something else.
The alternative solution is that I leave the job *now*. Go full-time for the rest of the year, pay fees, maybe get some casual work (something I've never had trouble with in the past) and then graduate with everyone else and get on with it. It's quite tempting. I'm going to have to look into it...
Right, time to go to New Cross.
Accordingly, from now on I'm going to consider this a general purpose blog. It's still going to feature a lot of music stuff, because I still do a lot of this.
But now I can post this wibble here. I'm doing a part-time degree, only I'm getting very fed up of my job and am doing it as fast as possible to get out of here. Because I'm part time, my fees are waived by the university. As long as I have the full-time job, I cannot be registered on the full-time degree, even if I pay the fees myself. I've managed to get through the first two years of it as part-time, ostensibly, because part-time includes anything up to one module short of the full complement and I've had free passes on one or two modules in each of the previous years because of my former experience. This year, however, I have to do everything. Only I can't because that means I'm full-time. So I'd have to leave one, just one, module, til next year, and maybe graduate in February. That means I either leave the job this summer, and try and get a new one without the actual degree yet - possible, I've been getting jobs without a degree all my life, after all - or wait til February and steal a march on next year's graduates. But I don't want to be here til February. It's at least partly irrational but I want to do what I didn't the first time, I want to graduate with everyone else, in summer, move on, get on with it, do something else.
The alternative solution is that I leave the job *now*. Go full-time for the rest of the year, pay fees, maybe get some casual work (something I've never had trouble with in the past) and then graduate with everyone else and get on with it. It's quite tempting. I'm going to have to look into it...
Right, time to go to New Cross.